Rainy Day Blues

A rainy, cold day here along the ocean. Windows are open for the breezes.

I am sick again - really sick. Fever, aches and the usual autoimmune stuff (rashes) that keeps me in bed. I hate living like this and some days it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am being sent to an allergist on the 22nd to find out why I am having allergic reactions to food now.

Weight is holding steady these days. I am forcing myself to eat once a day. I am drinking limeade or lemonade and water every day. I am struggling now since it is prime farmer's market season and I can't eat the fruits & veggies that I love - corn, melon, greens.

Tomorrow the sun will be shining, it will be clear and warm and God willing my fever will be gone. I will head to the beach for the afternoon if I can.

I am heading to Cape Cod at the end of the month with my daughter. I am praying that I can do this trip and not ruin it for her. My doctor and I have discussed no more airplane travel for the next 6 months since my trip to Arizona in June was so rough. I hope that the trip to the Cape is better.

Married Life

I am married again.

A quiet ceremony on July 12th with family and friends. Nice weather, beautiful vows, great food afterwards. Simple, quiet, legal and over with quickly. Much different than my first wedding in every way.

Not much has changed except for a feeling of security. I fought against getting married for years. Didn't want to make that commitment again and have it fail.

I am glad that I am married now.